Monday, January 11, 2010

I'm So Overwhelmed!!

Hey Ya'll,

I am sorry that I haven't been posting, nor commenting on blogs as usual.  I have just gotten so behind because of dealing with my FIL'S death.  I haven't been able to catch up on the blogs & can't even think of anything to say in my own!!  I think that I am still too overwhelmed by all that we went through last week.

I feel like this photo above right now.  But don't worry, I haven't taken to eating Cheeseburger's again!!  But I haven't been eating like I should & I have gained back a couple of pounds again!  We brought out one of the extra Enchilada Pies that we made for Christmas Eve, & froze to eat later.  It is really good, but I am afraid that it is high in calories.  Luckily, it is almost gone!  Then I can get back to my allowed diet!!  I really need to show the PA at the Surgeon's office that I can still lose weight.  She was not happy that I had only lost 1 lb from my post op appointment to my First Fill!  Of course, it didn't help that the Holidays were during that time frame!  I told her that I had actually lost another 5 lbs, but had gained it back during the Holidays.  She just looked at me like I was weak willed & wasn't very supportive.  :( 

I go back in on the 25th for my 2nd Fill & I really need it, as the First Fill didn't give me any restriction at all!!!  Also, a quick word on the FILL.  I wasn't sure what to expect.  Most bandsters say that it didn't hurt at all, but some say it hurt like hell!  Well, for me, the Fill was painless.  I could feel some pressure, but no pain of any kind!!  My DH was there watching & he was amazed that I couldn't feel anything after seeing the needle she used!!  She also didn't try to deaden the area first, which I have read that most that do complain of pain, only complains of the pain from the numbing shot.  Then there are the few that really have had excruciatingly painful experiences.  Thank god those are the few & not the many.

We are also hoping that the weather changes by the weekend of the 24th.  So we can rent a u-haul trailer & take up the rest of my Step Son's furniture to him.  He has moved back to his mother's house in Northern California, so he can attend the Jr College up there.  But this means that we would have to drive over the Sierra's again, as the easiest way to get to her place is to drive to Reno, then drive North from there.  Currently it is storming all week!  If it doesn't stop at least for the 24th, we won't be able to take his furniture up to him again.  We do have a 4x4, but we don't want to have to purchase chains in order to pull the u-haul!

So that is all for me at the moment.  I hope everyone is doing well.  By the way, I found a new blog through "Shrinking Mommy", called "Banded Mommy", please take a look, she is being banded later this month & could use some support (  Till next time.

Aloha My Friends  :)


Kristin said...

Debi, I'm so sorry to hear about your father-in-law's passing. And also sorry to hear the PA at your doctor was such a pill. That's not at all helpful. Good luck with the next fill and do your best. It'll work for you.

DawnB said...

Debi, my condolences to you. Hang in there, you will get back n track in no time.

Debi said...

Thank you so much.

Linda said...

Debi- Sorry to hear you've had such a rough time lately. I hope things settle down soon. Good luck with the fill - I'm sure it will help. Not sure why the PA would be mad if you're coming in not losing. That's for sure when you need a fill!!!

Debi said...

Thanks Linda! I actually did lose 1 lb, but she was expecting more!! And of course, we wouldn't be there if we didn't need the restriction for weight loss!!! LOL

Tina said...

Pish posh-you are in the bandster hell phase of things. It is completely reasonable not to lose a bunch of weight at this stage. She should have been more kind.

Hang in there and do the best you can. You have a lot going on and need to help take care of yourself and your husband emotionally and health-wise. Weight loss will come as you get more fills.

WE came through northern CAlifornia on our way to Sand Francisco today-the weather was horrible! Even worse than what we left in Oregon.



Debi said...

Thanks Tina! It means a lot to know that I am not crazy in that I thought she could have been a bit more nice about it.

I agree about the weather! It has been a bit nasty lately!! But since I hate the sun, it isn't too bad for me.

The Former Fat Girl said...

Debi ! So sorry to hear about your FIL passing. I cant imagine trying to juggle all these things at once, so just take a deep breath and forget about pleasing the NP at the office. You'll get your timing back but right now focus on you and your hubby !!

Thinking of you !

Debi said...

Thank you so much, it was my FIL, but for some reason, I just can't get myself together lately! I truly did love him. He was the first one in my DH's family to really accept me into the family & I will miss him!

THE DASH! said...

Hi Debi,
Boy, you're going through a lot right now - no wonder your weight-loss is not the first thing on your mind right now. Shame on the nurse for making you feel that way on the small loss.. pfft to her. Thinking of you darl,
Cara xx

Debi said...

Thanks Cara!! I can always count on you to brighten my day! Have a good one!

Dinnerland said...

Sorry you are overwhelmed, and that sounds like a bad expereince in the doc's office. Shaming does nobody any good! You'll show her, never fear!

Girl Bandit said...

I suppose the nurse was skinny???? It is so hard to go through tough times and deal with food at the same time...some would say it is easy but then they would be the thins ones hey??? Hang in there...give into the grief and we are here for you

Debi said...

Thank you Vanessa & Girl Bandit. I don't know why I am having so much trouble making my self be motivated to do much right now.

As for the PA, she wasn't what I would call skinny, but she wasn't over weight either. She just didn't seem to have the capacity to be very nice that day. I am hoping my next Fill Appt will be better.

Glad to see that you are back Vanessa!!