Tuesday, March 15, 2011

What A Relief!! And OMG! What A Horrible Sunday!

This is a photo of my 6th Painting.  I painted it for my other BFF Nadene.  She loves Butterflies and Dragonflies.  Well, I am not a big Dragonfly person, but I do love Butterflies, so Butterfly it is!!  It was the first time that I attempted to paint a living thing.  And this was my first flowers as well.  The rose in the corner wasn't too bad....the others, well....LOL  And NO!  This is not a Paint By Number!!  LOL

Hey Ya'll,

Well, I can finally say that the taxes are done and sent off to our CPA!  Now I just hope and pray that he doesn't have too many questions for me regarding them!  Every year I totally stress myself out doing them, and every year I worry that this would be the year that our marriage ended because of them!

Walt and I have been getting along quite well for several weeks without a hint of an argument or problem.  Until Sunday.  However, I must say that Sunday started out being a perfectly fine day, then....it turned out to be one of our worst days.  And I had every intention of blogging about it Sunday night, just to get my feelings out, and my problems off my chest.  But I didn't, I decided to wait until yesterday to do it, so that I could cool down a bit.  Then yesterday came and even though I was still upset, I knew that I wanted to make up with Walt.  So I did the right thing, and e-mailed him a long letter (he was in Sacramento working) telling him about how I felt, and apologized for my part of the problems we had on Sunday.

I got a call shortly after I sent off the e-mail from Walt, and we talked for almost an hour.  You see, on Sunday I was going to take a shower and then we were going to spend some time enjoying ourselves before starting the day (wink, wink).  But because we can't use our shower in our RV at this time, I had to get dressed just to walk over to the showers at the RV Park, then redress to walk back over to the RV.

So I decided that I would rather go to the store first to do our shopping while I was dressed, then come home and spend as much time in bed as he wanted to.  Well, Walt took this to say that I didn't want to make love until that night, as he felt that I was afraid that he would want to make love both that day and night, and that I was trying to get out of one of the times!!!  Well, I told him that that was not the case at all!  If only he had asked me point blank, instead of ASSUMING that that was my intention.  Because of his assumptions, he closed himself off (which he tends to do) and became upset and angry all day, so that nothing I said or did would be right.

Then I had to go and make it worse by getting snippy with him, when he came through my room to go to the bathroom one too many times!!  Now remember, the second Bathroom is back in my small "Office".  And the Office is so small that with my Office Chair in there, I have to turn it sideways so that we can slip between it and the door to get into the Bathroom!  And because we aren't using the front main Bathroom right now, due to a leak somewhere in the system.  My back Bathroom is the only we can use.  And I do understand this, and when you gotta go, you gotta go!

But!!!  This particular time, he came through AGAIN, Just To Blow His Nose!  Now in my defense, let me say this.  We have 2 boxes of Kleenex in the Living Room, with a trash basket there as well to throw them away in, so in my defense.....why couldn't he just blow his nose there???  Instead of forcing his way through my Office again?  And remember, he had been coming through all--day--long.  And I was frantically trying to wrap up the taxes.  And everytime he came through, I had to stop and change my position, then wait for him to finish, so that he could get back out!!!  Am I wrong in thinking he could have blown his bloody nose elsewhere???  Sorry, I just needed to get this off my chest.

Then once they were "done", I gave them to Walk to look over, to make sure that I had everything in the right place, and to see if he thought that I should take something out, or move to another place, etc.  Of course, there were some problems.  And of course, because he was aggravated with me, and mad to boot, then it was the F Bomb this, and F Bomb that, and I was F Bomb worthless, slow, etc, etc, etc.  Which is also why I was so upset, and just wanted to walk away...........and never look back.

But like I said, I gave myself time to cool down and remember why I Love Him!  So when he called me, we talked for about an hour.  We discussed our issues from Sunday, as well as other things that I had mentioned in my e-mail to him that I have been concerned about.  Like will we be able to stay together 24/7 without killing each other??  Walt is talking about quitting his current line of work (which pays very well, but he is sick of doing), and both of us getting our CDL's and going on the "Road" driving cross country together with both of taking turns driving.

We would be "living" in one of those Big Rig Trucks and as you know, there isn't much space in them, especially if you are living in them!!  So talk about no privacy.  And where do we go if we are having "words"???  There is no where to separate ourselves in order to cool off!  Anyway, these are just some of the things that I worry about.

But I am DONE with the taxes except for answering any questions our CPA may have for us.  My stress level has dropped significantly.  I have spent the past two days doing absolutely nothing!!  I even found that I needed to go to bed and take a nap each day for awhile.  I guess my body was more exhausted than I realized, and my body wanted to rest once the stress level dropped.  But I have been Stuck for the last 3 days when I tried to eat.  I guess it is due to the stress I have been under, and hopefully it will ease up now that the stress is lowered.  I am tired of slimming and having acid reflux at night when I try to sleep.

Now before you think the worst of Walt from what I said above, I have to say that when he isn't in one of his moods, etc, he is a very good husband, lover, best friend, etc.  He is very loving and kind, so long as you don't cross him.  Anyway, I digress.  So that I could continue working on the taxes (as he hates to do them), he did 9 loads of laundry for me on Saturday!!  Normally he helps me get the clothes to the laundry room, and get them started, then I finish them and he helps me getting them back to the RV and put away.  But this time he did them himself.  He can be such a great help.  And did I tell you that he does the cooking???

Now to switch subjects TOTALLY....in my past, I used to go to Rock Concerts a lot.  One of the Concerts that I could have gone to and didn't, and now kick myself for not going when I could.  As I can never see them now, was Queen.  I loved them, and the only reason I didn't go was because the only seats that I could have gotten was nosebleed seats.  But I was a seat snob back then, and I didn't want to pay that much to sit that far back.  Now with Freddie dead.....I could never see them in Concert with Freddie, ever!

The reason that I say this is that since about 1990, my music tastes have changed and I now mostly listen to Country, with some Rock and Roll still mixed in.  With a love of Classic Oldies as well, since I grew up listening to it with my Mom.  But another group from my Rock and Roll days that I have never seen and are one of my favorite bands is, Def Leppard.  I would love to see them in Concert.  And to watch Rick Allen play those drums one armed would be something!!  The seats range from $149 for practically front row seats, to $32 for the very back in the grass!

The problem, is that Walt will not spend the money on tickets for a Concert.  And I really don't blame him.  Also, I can't fault his reasoning.  After all, we are going to Hawaii this year (assuming that we can get a week there (we are still waiting to hear about this)).  And we do have to save up our money for our trip.  Especially since if we end up going with our daughter Kat and her husband Elliott, we will be paying for part of their expenses (she expects it!), as well as our own expenses.  Plus the Concert is on September 11th, and since we don't know when we are going to Hawaii yet.  My luck, I would get the tickets, and then the Hawaii trip would be THAT WEEK!!  So I will wait.

Maybe we will luck out and get Hawaii a different week, and Kat will buy my ticket for a birthday present!!  Well, a girl can dream can't she???  Just because Walt won't spend the money, doesn't mean she wouldn't.  Kat is like this.  She is so sweet, that she would think of something like this, knowing that I want to go.  Let's just say that I wouldn't be surprised if it happened.  BUT, I am not going to hold my breath either.  Given the choice of going to Hawaii or to the Concert.  Well.....Hawaii wins hands down!!  I can always listen to Def Leppard on CD!! LOL

Well, now that I have ranted about my bad day on Sunday.  And gave a little more about myself and my fascination with Def Leppard, I should go for now so that I can get this posted!!  Keep your fingers and toes crossed for us that we get a week in Hawaii!!  I can really use the time to relax and enjoy one of my favorite places on Earth!!  I am placing a few more photos below showing how stressed I was.  By Sunday evening my rash was to this level.  Luckily it wasn't my worst breakout, but any breakout is painful, and this was definitely painful.  Till next time.......

Aloha My Friends  :)


~Lisa~ said...

Oh my.. That rash must have been awful.. I'm sorry to hear you and Walt had words, but I'm glad to hear that you've made up!

Here's to Hawaii!!

Debi said...

Thanks Lisa! Yes the rash wasn't pleasant, but I applied my RX Ointment as soon as I realized that it was starting which helped to keep it at a minimum this time! And yes, I too am glad that Walt and I are talking again!

amandakiska said...

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I'm glad you guys are figuring things out and getting back to normal.

Debi said...

Thanks Amanda!